The more knowledge we acquire the less we know...

Throughout the years, I understand and can tell you how multiple parts of the brain works in accordance to hundreds and hundreds of things in every-day-life with details only a neuroscientist could. I understand and can tell you about anything, I mean everything and anything, or almost, about human sexuality from its mechanics to its most frivelous hypotheses.

This fountain of knowledge that I have about the human body doesn't keep me from doing searches on the Net this morning to know about "sinuses". I've been having a headache caused by my front sinuses for a few days now. The medication works but still my curiosity makes me want to know how it all works.

My findings just make me realise how little you know when you think you know so much already.

Semester over and now the Holidays!

To my biggest dissapointment, the exam was about an overview of all the content of the class and now just the several chapters learned from the mid-term. Obviously, my grade won't be that great. Still knowing that, I came out of the exam room last afternoon with a big smile. Going down the escalator and seeing my boyfriend waiting for me, it just made me happy. Finally, I don't know what my grades will be like for 2 of my PSYC classes at Concordia. The third one is still going on next semester because it's a 6 credit-class (one full-year). As for SEX1000 at UQAM, I finally completed that course. I started my Bachelor in Sexology in 2001. SEX1000 is an intro-type class to the sexology studies, it's to show the newbies if they're on the right track. Well, I abandoned it 3 times and this was my forth time taken it. Abandoning a course means that you drop out of the class without the action affecting your grades, and if you do it early enough, you don't get bill for the class. I got an A-. Really got an A minus!!! There's two other methodology-type class in the next years, and that is if I get accepted again next year when I have to ask for re-admission because I'm finishing it full time.

Now the holiday times!

Kept going to the gym ever since I restarted. Did it again, this morning before Christmas shopping. It was a spinning class... go legs! But yes, the Christmas shopping is done. Well, for the family in Nova Scotia, it is. I hate passing the holidays without sufficient funds to do all I want and to give all I want to give. I'm sure I'm not the only like that. I love seeing the people, driving around, the music and that festive spirit that everyone has. I just hate the gift part. I would just like to have Xmas and New Year without presents. No need to get them and no need to give them!

Window washers Season

Winter has all this greatness but, boy, is it easier to find it some many negatives. One among others is how the "/$%?& roads are dirtier and crap is shouting everywhere in car windows.

I was driving up to Montreal last night because I had a finals' exam in developmental psychology. Well I noticed, once on the highway, that no window washer fluid was squirting in my window. Rushed in time I didn't wanted to drive back in Saint-Jean so I waited to be next to Montreal. I couldn't see nothing, I was relying on other vehicules lights. Even that with all the crap in my window, I was having issues evaluating visualspacing around the car. I did my exam and came back home with the same issue. The heat of the car wasn't cutting it out for unclogging the tubes for distributing the washer fluid. When I got home, I verified everything that I could about the from window washer system; my poor little Saturn. I went to bed with the unwillingfulness to go to the garage this morning.

At 5:30 am this morning, anxious about spending money again for my "almost classic" car I couldn't go back to sleep. I got dressed for the cold and armed myself with an electrical extension cord and a hair blower. I fixed it! Some of the money that I would of spent on a mechanic is going on some new wipers this morning ^^

Stressed - hits the gym after a month of absence

As I mention in my last blog, I'm really stressed. Stress for me comes out by the weirdest physical means possible so I went back to the gym. Last time I went was November 7th and I've been back since December 10th. I have to say that I've been sleeping better. Plus, I bring my books to study while I'm on the cardio machines: hitting two birds with one stone. I actually find it easier to focus when I'm exercising.

My before-last exam is on the 16th, from 7pm to 10pm. What an awkward time for a final!

It's not to soon that I hit back the gym. I went to the doctor's last week. I needed to get some prescriptions renewed for the new year. Finally, the hypothesis of psoriasis is wrong. It's eczema!! I have now a new cream in my arsenal. I have one of the softest skins but darn, it's sensitive. Eczema will go away while I'm pumping that dopamine and noreprephine is my system through exercising. Get rid of the stress, trim down the number on the scale and rest better at night.

Just unsnowing and starting the car in the morning, so I can go to the gym, is a wake-up enough to get juices flowing in the bloodstream.

Being hypochondriac OR just knowing my body

On this day starts the run for University semester's end. On December 21th, it is my last exam. So the next few weeks are not as loaded with round-trips Montreal/St-Jean. Even if I have all this nice time to study, write out my notes clear so I can revise them properly. I am stressed, I see all the signs all over my body and "neurotically". Yes, yes I said "neurotically" instead of psychologically because it's just neurotic.

Physically: Headaches are much more common, mostly because of my sinuses blocking up. Psoriasis pop up on both elbows. Metal from my belt buckles and the inside of jeans' buttons are making little blemishes around my navel. That neck vertebre is wack which bring my shoulder pain and my metal ankle isn't following.

Neurotically: I'm only focus on my studies and organizing everything. I don't want sex. I get angry easily, and I'm irritated and restless. I wake every morning at 4 am at whatever time I got to bed the night before. I cry for nothing... It's almost like having pms but outside of normal 2-days-prior-to. There's more... I'm just crazy. I'm usually more subtle about it but in these periods I just can't keep calm.

After my last exam, my body and my mind will be exhausted. I think I'm more exhausted just trying to keep it all together. I lost 2 times this week... On Tuesday and yesterday. I should just hit the gym and get rid of this "oversome-energy".